just a prayer

So this is how it is. I’m tired. This week I’m having surgery. Last week the kids had VBS. The week before that we went on vacation – and my husband is one of those that doesn’t believe in resting on vacation.

I’m tired. I’m overwhelmed. I can’t do this. I wanna scream and yell that this is not fair.

I mean who’s idea was it to have a tumor grow on my neck? I want a refund God.

Lord help me. I can’t do this. Jesus why? Why me?

I have 2 special needs kids who can’t function when things are out of wack. A husband who is so busy.

I’m mad God. I’m so mad. This is not fair.

Help me Lord please. Help me understand. I know you have a plan but why?

This is not fair.

But Lord, I ask not my will but Yours be done. I trust You Lord. I commit this time to you.