Fight

I’ve always been a fighter.

Well at least in my head. Shoo….I’m a good fighter too yall. I’ve “won” some amazing fights.

Okay enough goofing around. Yall know about my abuse so yall know – I am not good at confrontation. Oh so not at all. I even hide from it.

Doesnt help when you are trying to be an example to your kids.

But I digress.

I remember when I was 16 – I was talking to my “friend” and we were making jokes about each other, when a man came up to me and started screaming at me.

I was terrified. I had just rededicated my life to Christ and being an example and here this man was accusing me …. of…..oh Lord. My mom brain is activating.

But he was yelling in my face about how I said something about him. I was waiting at a bus stop with this girl and I had no idea what to do. The girl was silent – obviously not a true friend.

I remember constantly saying “I wasn’t talking to you”. Then the bus came – it was this girls bus. She got on and left me alone.

Yall to tell you the terror that was inside of me? I can’t describe. Makes me tear up.

Something told me – get across the street. Thats where my school was. The man started to follow me – until he saw Joyce.

I went to school in a rough neighborhood – obviously with this nut coming up to a teen…anyways. Joyce was the favorite security guard. I have no idea why she was there or how she got there (at the time) – but she started yelling at him to get away.

I don’t remember much after that but I do know who was really there for me. Not Joyce – obviously not that girl – but the Lord.

I remember waiting a looooooooooooong time til the guy was far enough away – I remember Joyce comforting me – but I dont remember anything else.

But even now? I see the Lord. And thats okay if you dont always seeing God protecting you. But please know that no matter what you do? God is always there protecting you.

If you are a child of God? He will ALWAYS be there for you.

The Lord shall [a]preserve you from all evil;

He shall preserve your soul.

The Lord shall preserve[b] your going out and your coming in

From this time forth, and even forevermore.

Psalm 121:7-8

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