Psalm 34:5

They looked to Him and were radiant,
And their faces were not ashamed.

Psalms 34:5

Y’all? This verse has a powerful meaning. To many of course but to me alone? So profound.

So yall know how that kid sexually assaulted me right?

Well right before that happened, I remember reading this verse in a Brio magazine. Remember that magazine? Christian teen magazine – do they still have that?

Anyways, I was reading a story when the girl talked about how God used this verse in her life. And it stuck with me. 4 days before this kid attacked me I found this verse. And friend, I cannot tell you how I could not shake this verse.

I have OCD and there are certain things that stick in my head. I constantly repeat numbers over and over. I go through the worst obsessive thoughts….but moving on. So when this got stuck in my head (though I was undiagnosed at the time) I just thought it was par for the course.

I told my mom that I couldnt get this verse out of my head. She said: “Maybe God is trying to tell you something”

Boy was she ever right.

I went to church and it was playing in the back of my head. I walked through school and it stuck like a song. Then it happened.

It screamed in my head.

“Those who look to Him are radiant….”

All i kept thinking about was that verse. When I went home, after the attack, I wasn’t gonna tell my mom. ‘It was nothing,’ I kept thinking to myself. I let slip that I knew what God was trying to tell me through that verse.

Friend I wasnt even gonna tell my mom what happened. Then I did. And then we went to the police. And then the verse started to apply.

yall…..this kid spread it around that i asked for it. that I wanted it. i lost friends. people who i held dear. I was alone.

except for me and my verse.

“….and they were not ashamed….”

Y’all. God will always be there for you. Even before you think you need Him. Even before you even have an inkling….God is preparing you and covering you.

God loves you so much He will do whatever He can to reach out to us. What do you have to do? Nothing. just look out for those signs He’s trying to talk to you. Trust in Him to guide you through your dark times.

I cant promise you He will answer the way and when you want but He will be holding you tight.

38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

5 Comments

  1. I know this was difficult to write, but am blessed that you did. Many women needed to hear your story and how God brought you through it. Love you my sweet girl. – Mom

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