Today is my birthday (SIDENOTE: not actually today – wrote this on my actual birthday). Today I turned 41. Am I an old fart? Yes. Do I act my age? Not even close.

I spent most of my childhood caring what people think. I spent too much time not being the Jessica God created me to be. I spent too much time wasting my years trying to make people like me.
I spent too much time trying to fit “Social norms”. I spent too much time on my relationship with people and not enough time on my relationship with God. Seriously i cared more about people than God.
Probably why I have no friends now.
hmmmm
So here I am 41. Awkward. Jesus Freak. Embracing who God created me to be.
And guess what? I am getting more and more okay with it.
You are all fair, my love,
And there is no spot in you.
Song of solomon 4:7