i dont talk well….wait….i mean…i dont do talking….i mean….wait. hold up. lets start again.
Talking is not my cup of tea. Yeah…I have some issues but i am not talking about that either. talking. just talking. i am a textbook holder…inner…..ummmmm….
I hold things in and let it fester is what i am trying to say.
Its a horrible habit that developed growing up. I was always taught –
“dont rock the boat”
“no one wants to hear you complain”
And so on….bringing back memories I dont want to relive right now.
I hold things in. And? It benefits no one. I get bitter and angry and concoct this whole scenario where I know – without a shadow of a doubt? No one loves me.
See what happens there?
I let the enemy get a little bit of my heart and boom……he goes haywire.
Theres a constant battle going on with us (see Ephesians 6:12) but its not always where we think it is (the mind). Yall its in our hearts too. A major battle is going on in your heart right now friend. The enemy is telling you one thing and without the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:14-18)? You are ….
how do we fight our battles?
Surround yourself with the Lord. Things of the Lord. Uplifting and encouraging TV shows, music, biblical sermons, books….always keep guard of your hearts my friend. Thats our biggest battle