Not shocking but i have an eating disorder. Not disordered eating. Orthorexia Nervousa its called – i believe. Dont quote me on that, still working this out. I was only gonna keep track on it with instagram – but someone reported me. So theres that – then I realized something.
Why was I posting it on there? Instagram is literally there for people to get attention. For people to look at me and give me the attention i craved. Yup. I was getting into that mindset again.
I’m glad to whoever reported me. Thats not the point of getting help.
Y’all? I cant with me.
Well, the point is I was getting into that legalistic mindset again!
I set boundaries. I set restrictions. I was not allowing myself grace or mercy. I was putting myself through the worst of it mentally because “this is how things are supposed to look” … I need to look a certain way and act a certain way to get and deserve love.
Friend? Thats not how God works. Therefore? Thats not how anything should work. I know I know fallen world but that shouldn’t be the way we live our lives.
Our God is kind and loving to us – why should we be any different to ourselves?
And why should we be any different in the way we act to each other?
Just saying – friend? We need to be more Christ-like.