So frustrating – a prayer

Lord I am so frustrated. I hate this time of trial. I hate this so much. It’s so frustrating and so lonely. God I hate this.

Lord I know you are trying to teach me to trust. But it’s so hard. So freaking difficult.

Ha.

That’s the essence of trust isn’t it? Letting go and putting my faith in you right?

Okay Lord. I trust you and I pray not my will but yours be done. I ask Lord that you would use me Lord.

I’m cantankerous.

I am grumpy.

I am being selfish.

I’m irritable.

I’m sorry Lord. Please forgive me.

But Lord I come and offer my life to you. Please forgive me and use me. I’m here Lord. Use me.

⁸ Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying:

“Whom shall I send,

And who will go for Us?”

Then I said, “Here am I! Send me.”

Isaiah 6:8