Lonely

She sat there sipping her coffee….silently wanting to scream. Lonely. Thats what it was. Thats what filled her soul. Lonely, ugly, fat, stupid. Thats what she always was and thats all that she will ever be.

Stop it Jess. Thats not true.

Her toxic thoughts filled her mind. She hated that she had this struggle. Why couldnt she struggle with anything else?

Cause you are worthless and evil and stupid and fat and ugly. You aint worth anything.

Wow. that hit close to home

Stop.

You are never meant to be anything you are not loved.

She quickly clenched her coffee harder and the tears started to trickle down her face.

God.

Please.

Make this stop. I know your truth. Lord help me remember.

Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”

Deut 31:6

But this is for good people. not for you jessica. You are not worthy.

For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Romans 5:7-8

God. Jesus. Please.

Mommy? Can I have a hug please?

What? What happened baby?

Nothing. I just wanted a hug.

Look for those little blessings. Cause God will ALWAYS be there for you.

The enemy will always put those toxic thoughts in your head. Its like his biggest move. The reminder is? Our God is so much bigger and has a lot of different ways to bless and encourage you.

You just gotta be on the lookout for them.

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