Lately I’ve been going through it – as we know. Well the past week God has been showing me more and more about forgiveness. Well, since I’m such a perfect Christian and all….i did not see this coming. That it was a message for someone else and not me (insert a huge amount of sarcasm in those last 2 sentences please). Well….it was told to me that I was to receive a visitor. One who had majorly offended me 42,000 years ago – and I never forgot. As soon as I heard the news – my snarky side came out and boom. I did not see that coming – bitterness.
God forgive me.
Even as I type this? I am getting angry about how I was offended. But then also? I’m kinda seeing how the way this person offended me had nothing to do with me – but everything to do with their insecurities. Their sin. Their faults. They honest to goodness slapped me (well metaphorically) in the face. See the anger?
A work in progress folks. But I can see what God was…is trying to tell me. That people aren’t perfect. That people will fail me – my job is not to judge them or put them “in their place”. But to love them. To pray for them. And to show God’s love – no matter how I feel about them.
I know it is not going to be fun….or at all easy. But here I am Lord. Please use me to be a blessing…..even to that person. I know. I KNOW I cant do this….but by your grace alone Lord? I will.
Man this is gonna be difficult.