Not being heard

Most of my life I have spent not being heard by people. I think it’s cause – well I didn’t have the therapy (speech therapy) I needed to help me get my point across. It sucks majorly. Not being heard has lead … led…ahh you know what I mean. It’s caused issues.

Mainly the issue is trust. Yes. The big “T” word. We all know I have Trouble with that – wait – have I talked about it here?

Sigh.

And I’m supposed to be a writer…

Moving on.

Not being heard makes me bitter and angry and not trust. Which has lead…wait…led? It’s caused me to have trouble with my relationship with God.

Nah.

I’m changing that. It’s my choice to not trust God … hold up …. but I haven’t had many good examples of people looking out for and listening to me so I guess that does translate to my relationship with God.

It’s hard. I wanna trust God and believe me I’m learning but it’s hard. To stare into the unknown and putting my life and the life of my family into his hands?

Hands down the scariest thing I have ever done. Hands down.

Lord, I know you have always come through for me. Please forgive me for my doubt – But here I am Lord.

I trust in you alone.

“Can a woman forget her nursing child,

And not have compassion on the son of her womb?

Surely they may forget,

Yet I will not forget you.

See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands;

Your walls are continually before Me.

Isaiah 49:15-16