im mad

Lord……yea im admitting it. Im mad. But seriously? Why? why do I hafta go through this?

Forgive me Lord but I dont want to go through this. I want to be healthy for my family.

I want to not be in pain.

I want to be that mom for my kids.

I hate being out of breath and in pain.

This sucks.

Lord Jesus. This sucks so much.

I don’t understand why I hafta go through this.

But i trust you. I give my life to you.

I praise you – even when I’m mad – cause I know you got a reason for this.

So

I trust you and ask that not my will but yours be done.

Blessed is the man You choose,

And cause to approach You,

That he may dwell in Your courts.

We shall be satisfied with the goodness of Your house,

Of Your holy temple.

psalm 65:4