i still believe

yeah this is an awkward topic. Suicide. This has made many people push me away – especially cause I talk about it. Openly. But I know this needs to be talked about. Too many people still believe that suicide is a selfish act. Too many people dont understand the truth of people with suicidal thoughts. I think more and more people need to talk about the truth of what they went through that time.

I wasnt selfish.

The first time maybe a little theatrical.

But I was far from thinking about myself. Satan had convinced me I was a horrible human and that the world would be a better place without me.

I was convinced I was doing the world a favor. I was convinced I was convinced my 5yo and 3 yo deserved a better mom. I knew my husband needed a better wife.

I knew.

I knew I had to leave this earth to make way for a better person – cause God made a mistake with me.

I knew.

Friend, if you are hurting please – PLEASE KNOW – you are not alone.

You are loved. You are loved by so many but no one loves you more than God.

He sent His son to this earth for you. Yes you.

Dont believe the lies that are told – you are loved, you are needed.

don’t give up.

Talk. Talk to someone. Anyone. Get the help you need. Never take any shame in asking for help beautiful soul. Dont ever think hiding those vulnerabilities makes you stronger. We need each other. Talk to someone please.

Remember no man is an island – wait blanking. Seriously who said that?

Two are better than one,

Because they have a good reward for their labor.

10 For if they fall, one will lift up his companion.

But woe to him who is alone when he falls,

For he has no one to help him up.

11 Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm;

But how can one be warm alone?

12 Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him.

And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

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