God only knows

there are times when God only knows. God only knows my heart. God only knows my pain. some words are just too difficult for me to express. But God knows. And you would think thats enough – its not. But Im learning.

There are times when I cant even begin to think past my pain. I feel so alone and isolated.

I hate it

But through these times? I’m learning God only knows and thats good enough.

I find that when I open to people – they kind of push back. Case in point – my postpartum journey.

Case in point when I opened up about my abuse. Yeah im not ready to tell story yet. But thats when it hit me – no one. No one can understand.

And thats okay.

God is the only one who wants to hear.

God is the only one that can meet the need we have. That need to be loved and accepted as we are.

God is there waiting for us. All we have to do is reach out to Him.

And?

He’ll be there for you.

Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.

revelation 3:20