thorn in the flesh

everyone has ideas as to what Paul means when he talks about a “thorn in the flesh”. He means his eye issues … he’s talking about his guilt of killing people …. and so on. I like they dont talk about what it was. Cause its the idea behind it. I know a thing or two about this. And I hate it but i accept it.

⁷ And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to ^[b]buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. ⁸ Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. ⁹ And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. ¹⁰ Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:7-10

For those new … here is a general link to whats been happening to me. I am a spoonie who has dealt with chronic pain all my life. Tomorrow (that is February 17th) I have an appt to see a rheumatologist.

I’m excited but i am very nervous. I have a tendency of not being heard. I have been led down so many directions i am honestly tired of this rabbit hole.

I want answers. I want to know why I am broken. I want to know how I can help these symptoms. I want to live a healthy life – as much as I can.

But you know what I want more?

For God to use this thorn in my flesh for His glory.

I ask Lord that you would use me for your glory. I hate this pain so much. I hate not being able to do certain things. I hate being broken. But I know you have a plan. So I trust you and commit my life to you.