everyone has ideas as to what Paul means when he talks about a “thorn in the flesh”. He means his eye issues … he’s talking about his guilt of killing people …. and so on. I like they dont talk about what it was. Cause its the idea behind it. I know a thing or two about this. And I hate it but i accept it.
For those new … here is a general link to whats been happening to me. I am a spoonie who has dealt with chronic pain all my life. Tomorrow (that is February 17th) I have an appt to see a rheumatologist.
I’m excited but i am very nervous. I have a tendency of not being heard. I have been led down so many directions i am honestly tired of this rabbit hole.
I want answers. I want to know why I am broken. I want to know how I can help these symptoms. I want to live a healthy life – as much as I can.
But you know what I want more?
For God to use this thorn in my flesh for His glory.
I ask Lord that you would use me for your glory. I hate this pain so much. I hate not being able to do certain things. I hate being broken. But I know you have a plan. So I trust you and commit my life to you.