just ask

yall know we’ve been going through the thick of it these past couple of months – its been difficult. I’ve been …. well honestly a train wreck. I’ve been praying and praying but man y’all – i have truly been feeling ignored by God. then? Then I asked. I just asked God if He would help me. And He did.

Not the way I wanted – nope. Not even close. Grandma is getting worse. I still have no answers from the doctor. And so on. But God has been answering that prayer for help.

Today – I legit – struggled to get to women’s bible study. I was filled with dread.

NO sugar coating that.

I have been struggling and someone noticed: “You need to go,” said my husband. So I went.

Theres this quote from someone (sorry cant remember who) that said: if you don’t want to read your bible or go to church? You need to make sure you get it done.

So I went.

And I was so immensely blessed and encouraged. I felt the presence of the Lord. Then I went back home. Boom. It hit like a …. bag of bricks? Is that the saying?

I don’t remember.

Anyways, we got news my grandma is having a lot of strokes and is not recognizing anyone. The hospice nurse told us to prepare.

I reached out to my brother (who is not a christian) and prayed.

then?

my son asked for something, to which I gave it to him and he responded, “I love you.”

“I love you too, but what happened? Why did you say that?” I asked.

“Oh. I thought it was bedtime,” came the response.

I know that might not seem like much to you – but man. I really needed that giggle.

Reach out to God my friends and He will bless you. Not in the way you expect – but He always will be there for you.

“As for you, my son Solomon, know the God of your father, and serve Him with a loyal heart and with a willing mind; for the LORD searches all hearts and understands all the intent of the thoughts. If you seek Him, He will be found by you; but if you forsake Him, He will cast you off forever.

1 Chronicles 28:9