well here we go … again

well here we go again. had my new set of blood tests done. Found out my thyroid stimulating hormone was at 22 (it should be less than 2). Dude. It explains everything i’ve been going through – not the hypermobility … though they are not exclusive. Moving on.

I’m talking the depression and severe exhaustion.

I have been placed on yet another medicine – which is great cause today (after about a week of taking it) I am feeling different. But it also sucks cause I started out on other meds feeling good. I mean at my last thyroid check my levels were getting lower. I think I went to an 8 (started out at a 12).

I wanna freak out – but I know its just about trusting God.

Wow.

After these past couple of weeks of severe anxiety and depression? It feels good to say that and actually mean it.

Thank you Lord for that blessing.

It shows me the truth of the Lord. yeah. there are gonna be dark times – but we just hafta have faith that the good will come. ya know?

God is good. He loves us.

Its this world that sucks and God doesn’t plan for us to be here forever. As Christians, after we fulfill our purpose here, our forever is in heaven.

so therefore this time here on earth is gonna suck a lot. But we just gotta have that faith that God – in His mercy – will give us those blessings.

So here I am believing that God has a plan and I am gonna trust in that plan.

³ Whenever I am afraid,

I will trust in You.

⁴ In God (I will praise His word),

In God I have put my trust;

I will not fear.

What can flesh do to me?

psalm 56:3-4