Sigh

Sigh. So yesterday I finally went to urgent care and got my diagnosis. Well for my knee at least. I have dislocated my knee cap and I have advanced arthritis in several locations in my knee. I didn’t know that could happen – but people with EDS are susceptible to orthoarthritis … I know thats not the term but …

I’m frustrated.

I’m tired.

I’m scared, I’m so scared.

Does this mean yet another surgery? Does this mean I won’t be able to walk at a certain age? Does this mean I’ll always be in pain?

Lord. Help me. I don’t know what to expect and we know that I don’t do well with that. I don’t know what’s happening…but I trust in you alone. I commit my health to you.

Not my will but yours be done in my life.

saying, “Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.”

Luke 22:42