Through this crappy time, I’ve been learning a lot. Like? It’s all about attitude and your focus isn’t it? Cause if not? You’d be just wallowing in self pity and despair.

That’s what I’ve been doing. Just check my twitter. I mean ..: I’m human. What else can I say? Spoonie life is rough and can (more like will) take your eyes off the Lord. Which sucks cause that’s where we get our hope. Our joy.

Ha. Joy. How can I have that through this time, right? Gotta be honest … Most times I don’t. I just cry and wallow in my “woe is me” attitude. But I’m learning more and more to stop looking at me.

Sigh. Yes. I’m Jess and I’m selfish. I’m all about the “what about Jessica’s?”

But seriously y’all, God is showing me so much. Even with me hobbling around the house getting mad that I can’t even take my kids to the park for fun. I’m learning that He is the source of my joy. He is the source of my hope. and He will get me through. All I hafta do is call upon Him.

No situation, person, place, thing, … whatever is gonna make me forget that.

The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer;

My God, my strength, in whom I will trust;

My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised;

So shall I be saved from my enemies.

Psalms 18:2-3

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