Y’all for years and I am talking years … I was praying about being in a ministry. Then I thought my ministry was in the church. Then i thought my ministry was as an influencer (stop judging) and then and then … you see where I’m going with this?
I was always looking to the outside for … validation? Verification? No. Validation. Like I needed people to see me being good at being a Christian.
Or something weird like that.
Then different things started to happen. Like they would legitimately mystify me. My health. My daughters health. My sons autistic issues. My husbands new responsibilities at work. My parents health. Me realizing the abuse. My grandma passing.
One after another after another.
I tried doing YouTube videos (see bottom video for link). Tried writing devotionals here (still do obviously but not as much as I used to). Again, thing after thing after thing. Until I saw where I was actually needed.
My family. Seems dumb like “hello Jess? Shouldn’t that have been your first idea?” Sadly it wasn’t but it should’ve.
I’ve always had this idea that in order to be in “full time” ministry it has to look a certain way.
Again, don’t know where I got that from.
But now I see changes in my family more than ever … actually more so in me. Good things. Awesome things.
What am I getting to? When praying about being in a ministry? Look to your family and/or loved ones first.
They not only need your help the most – but it will be a true test of your relationship with God.