I don’t know what to say

I don’t. It’s been a couple of bad pain days – non stop rainy days. My leg is killing me. And the worst part is? The part with the major arthritis doesn’t hurt that much – it’s the muscle pain. That’s the pain that cripples me and leaves me near tears. I don’t know what to say after that.

I talk about it and people just kinda calm up. I get it. I don’t know what I would say if the shoe was on the other foot. Did I say that right?

Sitting here I hear my kids downstairs with my husband talking and laughing and I get mad. Oh wait – forgot to say I’m in bed. Stood too long on my leg. I’m waiting for the pain meds to kick in. Makes me mad. I’m missing that time with them.

But I know God has a plan.

Like what I learned today: I like control. I know. I know. We’ve only talked about that about 3000000 times – but I’m hard headed.

I was talking to my husband about a completely different topic and as I was thinking about it? it hit me how much it applies to this . Bear with me as I explain.

I always feel like I have to do everything – cause apparently I’m the only one that can. (Insert hard eye roll here) but I need to stop trying to be in everything. Sometimes? I need to let other people do stuff too.

Earth shattering as a mom – I know. But I always make the excuse “oh they don’t do it right so I gotta do it”

Nah friend. That’s not how it works. Not at all. I mean … Who am I to to control everything and everyone? Not everything is about me.

Y’all my point? God allows certain things in our life to teach us. Are you listening to what God is trying to teach you?

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