Dude

Dude. Do you have any idea how much this process pisses me off? By process, I mean this time of illness and learning.

Ugh.

This whole thing pisses me off so much. Having to say no to things cause I physically can’t. Having to have people make plans without me? Not being considered cause I’m always in pain?

It’s not fair. It’s … it’s … humbling. I hate it so much.

I was talking with my mom – she’s going through her own struggles. She said it perfectly. It’s humbling.

I don’t like asking for help. I don’t like to rely on people.

Lord. I get it. I need to learn. But I officially don’t like this process of learning.

At all.