I told yall about that David play right? The song that impacted my recent life. Well, this comes from it: “…strength comes from above….to lead us to love….you have a choice…trust in your Shepherd…listen for His word…follow His voice” Man. Yesterday proves it ya know? I have no strength.
More and more i am finding how I just cant….I cant function without God. At all. And i am okay with that.
I have had this idea that I need to do everything. That I am the only one that can get things done. I know. I know.
This whole thing with my weakness and dizziness is just proof to me that I still need to work on trust.
i was talking with someone about trusting God and it hit me as I was talking: this is gonna be a life long journey. This is a minute by minute thing. Trusting God is beautiful and awesome but I am human. I am gonna fail. I am gonna doubt. I am gonna get angry. But as long as I get back up and put my faith back into God? I know He will bless that faithfulness.
Lord I am scared beyond belief about what I am going through. But I know you have a plan. And I know you know whats best. I commit my life and my family’s life to you.