Well that happened

So there’s this meme going around for chronic illness suffers. It goes along the lines “getting normal medical test results leads to the doctor saying you’re fine” well that happened.

Wait lemme get it for you…

Couldn’t find it but this is close:

Sigh.

My holter monitor results came back normal – thank God. But I’m still dealing with the dizziness and weakness. It was told to me I’m drinking too much water. I was at 300ozs – which is dangerously close to the cut off amount.

The last couple of days I haven’t. Well after 1 day of feeling normal, today? I haven’t been this dizzy in a minute .:. In a while … in a bit …

Or however you say that hip & cool.

Sigh. My brain fog is bad today. What was I gonna say? Oh yeah. The cardiologist referred me to a POTS specialist.

I got an appointment in September.

Lord this sucks. I ask for your grace. I’m mad. I wish I didn’t have to go through this. It’s not fair. But I know this is for a reason and you are teaching me. I have learned a lot and am grateful for that part. But does this hafta be so rough?

You know what Lord? I hate feeling useless and helpless. But use me Lord – if that means I must struggle. Then So be it.

As always Lord, not my will but yours be done.

For I know that my Redeemer lives,

And He shall stand at last on the earth;

And after my skin is destroyed, this I know,

That in my flesh I shall see God,

Job 19:25-26