I’m so over this

Well as you read … whenever. My test results came back normal. I was referred to a POTS specialist. I’m so over this. I want answers now. I want to now already what’s been happening.

Lord I can’t.

And then – just so you know – living the Spoonie life is rough. Why? Cause everyone always has an opinion. Always. “You’re drinking too much water” “are you sure this is not in your mind?” “You just need to power through” “but you look fine” “it can’t be that bad you still workout

Or they just get uncomfortable when you talk about your struggles – so they avoid you like the plague.

Yeah. I hate this.

Most days I can ignore, some days? It causes me great anxiety sometimes and some days I wanna slap the stupid out of them. But what do I do? I keep silent.

Not because of anything except I know people have this need to fix. I used to have that need remember? Yeah who am I kidding … I still have that.

But seriously … I get that. So I keep my mouth shut and thank them. besides what does it help making them feel bad or attacked? That’s not what God has called us to do right?

I’m learning…how about you?

Even a fool is counted wise when he holds his peace;

When he shuts his lips, he is considered perceptive.

Proverbs 17:28

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