His perfect timing

I hate waiting – I know not shocking. But I know he has a perfect timing. In His perfect timing there is something so spectacular and wonderful. What it is? I don’t know. And I hate that.

I’m sitting here … actually laying … writing this post after a long night of just pain. Why not take pain pills? Well good question. I hafta take my thyroid meds on an empty stomach so I take them in the middle of the night. No pills 2 hrs before or 4 hours after. So there’s that.

So I just lay there usually in pain – unless it’s too much then I say screw it. But I can’t do that often cause it’ll screw up my thyroid numbers.

So. Yeah. I don’t usually take pain pills at night. I usually just stare at the ceiling or wall. And I pray.

I’ve been praying a lot lately but I feel like nothing is happening and I feel ignored and forgotten. I know that’s the enemy and God has perfect timing and I should trust in that – but I’m human y’all.

So here’s to learning the suckiest lesson of them all…patience.

Lord I commit this all to you and pray that you would forgive my doubt and fears. I know you got me.

Indeed we count them blessed who endure. You have heard of the perseverance of Job and seen the end intended by the Lord—that the Lord is very compassionate and merciful.

James 5:11