I hate waiting – I know not shocking. But I know he has a perfect timing. In His perfect timing there is something so spectacular and wonderful. What it is? I don’t know. And I hate that.
I’m sitting here … actually laying … writing this post after a long night of just pain. Why not take pain pills? Well good question. I hafta take my thyroid meds on an empty stomach so I take them in the middle of the night. No pills 2 hrs before or 4 hours after. So there’s that.
So I just lay there usually in pain – unless it’s too much then I say screw it. But I can’t do that often cause it’ll screw up my thyroid numbers.
So. Yeah. I don’t usually take pain pills at night. I usually just stare at the ceiling or wall. And I pray.
I’ve been praying a lot lately but I feel like nothing is happening and I feel ignored and forgotten. I know that’s the enemy and God has perfect timing and I should trust in that – but I’m human y’all.
So here’s to learning the suckiest lesson of them all…patience.
Lord I commit this all to you and pray that you would forgive my doubt and fears. I know you got me.