What is the true call of God? I’ve been praying and seeking out God on this. Cause you know God never calls the prepared or the ones who we think should be called. But what does that hafta do with me?
Take a look at king David. He was considered a puny nobody by many. But God chose him to be king. Does that apply to my health? Is God gonna use that?
I had this idea that God has called me to several things … but I knew God has called me to minister to my family. So I thought boom. That was it.
But it’s not. I mean .. wait .. obviously cause my family will always need me in a certain way but my ministry goes beyond that. To everyone.
My life – how I handle my illness. How I handle the doctors who don’t believe…how I handle the stares from people as brain fog hits me ridiculously hard that I feel like the only idiot..I am a stinking mess. But as long as I live my life according to Gods will? He will use that to minister to others…
Lord I pray that you use me. My life is yours
Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? For the Son of Man will come in the glory of His Father with His angels, and then He will reward each according to his works. Assuredly, I say to you, there are some standing here who shall not taste death till they see the Son of Man coming in His kingdom.”
Matthew 16:24-28
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