Been a bad couple of weeks. I’m actually writing this in October. So when the hurricane hit Florida? It hit me hard. It’s been a week since – the hurricanes gone and I’m still suffering. I wish this wasn’t true. I wish this wasn’t my life but it’s all true.
Ugh. My head is blanking so badly right now. I don’t even know what I was gonna say
….
I’m spent. My body feels like I’m dying regularly – I wish I was being dramatical about that.
I feel like God hates me lately. I feel like a failure. I feel rejected. I know that’s the enemy messing with me cause:
The LORD is on my side;
Psalms 118:6
I will not fear.
What can man do to me?
And we know the Bible is true cause … well read Matt 24 and then look at the news.
So I hold on to that fact and I sing my worship songs and I cry and I hope.
Lord I’m overwhelmed. I am scared. I need you. I cry out to you. I praise you for I know you are there. I praise you for you are mighty and powerful and I know you have me. Thank you Lord for always being there. I thank you for loving me. I commit my health to you and ask that you would grant the doctors wisdom on how to help me. I commit my life to you.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
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