Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
Hi my name is Jessica and I have a problem. A lot of problems but a big one is I like control. No really. It’s like a huge thing with me. I need to control my life – every aspect. I have recently realized it’s a part of the trauma I have gone through but […]
I’m a planner .:. I plan out every aspect of everything. planning helps me – keep control I guess. I planned on running a marathon – but POTS changed that. I planned on losing a bunch of weight – but MCAS is making that harder and harder. Makes me frustrated and feeling defeated A lot […]
I ain’t gonna sugar coat it: Being a Christian is difficult. A lot are under the impression that life gets easier when you choose to follow God – but it don’t. In fact I would even choose to say it gets harder Why would I say something so bold? Well think about it – first […]
I hate it – from the depths of my soul – when I see a need not being met. So I go and do. Whether I want to or not. It pains me not doing a thing. But here I am .. not doing a thing cause my body says no. I guess it has […]
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. I can’t help but talk about the women in my life who made a huge impact in my life. First off? My mom. We’ve had a strained relationship in the past but as I’ve gotten older – I finally understand…her. Understand her sacrifices, her love, her craziness, her fierce love of […]
Y’all it’s moving day! The day I have waited for is finally here and? I’m terrified. I am literally sitting on my bed not being able to move cause it’s just so much. The remaining packing .. the move .. the ac stuff .. it’s all just … it’s got me frozen in frustration. And […]
I’m such a go getter. If I see something that needs to be done? I do it. I don’t ask for help. I just do. Then? I get bitter and mad that no one else sees or fixes it. Yeah .. not my shining moment but ya know that’s what needing to be in control […]
So…here’s an update: my heart rate is so weird my watch can’t keep track correctly. I can’t stomach plain salt shots anymore – so I have to eat rice again. My nose is so congested after I eat and my eczema is bad again. Oh yeah and? My husband is injured. Lord I know .. […]
Lord there are so many things happening. I’m so overwhelmed because I’m trying to do this on my own. Please forgive me Lord. I commit this to you and praise your holy and powerful name. Thank you Lord for loving me… There’s nothing worth more, that will ever come close No thing can compare, You’re our […]
The other day I talked about a trial we are going through – it has to deal with others so I’m gonna be vague – but it’s a low blow. It’s actually a couple of difficult, different things. And each? Makes me so frustrated. Hey I said I shouldn’t complain – never said I wouldn’t. […]
How Jesus Changed Me 