Moments

I go through my moments .. especially since getting sick: “oh my life is horrible” .. “poor me” .. “no one understands”. And so on. I recently went through that. It’s hard living this Spoonie life. Makes ya wanna feel sorry for yourself and push out life. Y’all I have been so tired lately I […]

7

It’s 7 something in the morning and I had a rough night. My legs are so tired .. I’m in such pain I can’t even go to church (it’s a Sunday). But yet I still will praise my Lord. God I hate this so much, but I trust and hope in you alone. In the […]

Exercise sucks

Yeah. That’s right a former fitness influencer is saying: Exercise sucks. Why? Well .. Cause it does. With being diagnosed with ehlers danlos the first thing I learned? The importance of exercise in my daily life. If I don’t exercise – even something as simple as a stretch workout or a bike ride – I […]

Patience

Lord I understand that you are trying to teach us patience .. but please can we stop learning this lesson? Lord I know you have a plan, but why does this have to be so difficult? We have had thing after thing these past 2+ years. Why? Honestly? This ain’t fair … this is beyond […]

Dear doctor

To the doctor who didn’t believe me .. dear doctor .. please remember one thing: I wanna be mad and put you on blast. But you know what? I’m gonna pray for you. I’m gonna pray that God would open your eyes and grant you wisdom. I’m gonna ask that God would bless you. I’m […]

I’m scared

Lord … I’m scared. I don’t want to go this doctors appointment to just leave defeated. I don’t want to be ignored and humiliated again. I’m in pain. I’m tired. But I’m scared. Lord you are my rescuer. I know you are there guiding my steps. I ask in your holy precious name that you […]