Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
y’all know how I’ve been going through it with this new house right? And how we hoped for something else. And how we are handling it, Well there are other things happening (structural) .. and I’m tired of it. But I’m learning to have faith. faith is something we hope for. Believe that God will […]
As a Spoonie, I hear this constantly from people when I say: I’m suffering. “Are you having enough faith?” “God will heal you! Just have the faith” Y’all…I have faith. I know my Beautiful creator can do anything. Anything at all, but it still hurts. This sucks. I can’t play with kids like I used […]
I love this song by Tauren Wells – “there will be joy”. It’s a great song, I would encourage you to check it out. But it doesn’t speak of real true joy. Ok ok chill out – it’s a great song. But I have an issue with the line: “…if it’s not good then he’s […]
The other day I talked about a trial we are going through – it has to deal with others so I’m gonna be vague – but it’s a low blow. It’s actually a couple of difficult, different things. And each? Makes me so frustrated. Hey I said I shouldn’t complain – never said I wouldn’t. […]
Lord I’m tired .. So tired of this house hunting!! Everything on sale .. is run down or poorly made or not taken care of. So we are still here .. In a house that a mouse lives in .. that has holes still … that is drafty .. we are still here. I don’t […]
I just got back from the last cardiologist appointment and the results? I’m normal. Lord Jesus I’m frustrated. I knew .. I knew he was full of crap when he said: “do you think you can trigger an episode?” I have dysautonomia. The literal definition is a dysfunction of the AUTONOMIC nervous system. But I […]
So…last night was the first night without the strong meds. Well … lowered meds. I haven’t slept this well since before my second round of Covid. Thank you Lord!!!!! Quick recap: I was incorrectly prescribed a narcotic medication for years. My new doctor is taking me off of it slowly but surely. Withdrawal from this […]
So. Had my first important doctor appointment today. My psychiatrist. What’s the sum up? I shouldn’t have been taking any of the meds I’ve been prescribed. In fact some were too dangerous to take together. And I’ve been taking them together for years. Years and no one told me. So…you know … that happened. I […]
I honest don’t know what I’m gonna write. My heart is conflicted Lord. I don’t understand the purpose of being thankful sometimes. I know that has to do with my trauma – it’s hard to be thankful when you’re always waiting for the bottom to fall out. Lord please help my unbelief. I know you […]
Ok. Ok. Bear with me here but really think about this question: who has the power? I know seems like a foolish question as a Christian right? But no. There’s a …. Group of people who believe that they have some power on how their lives play out. “Name it and claim it” … ya […]
How Jesus Changed Me 