Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
I just got back from the last cardiologist appointment and the results? I’m normal. Lord Jesus I’m frustrated. I knew .. I knew he was full of crap when he said: “do you think you can trigger an episode?” I have dysautonomia. The literal definition is a dysfunction of the AUTONOMIC nervous system. But I […]
She looked at her computer screen in frustration. So many words. So many ideas wanted to spill out. How do I even start? Write Ok. But where? Where do I start? What do I write about? Write She slammed her hands in frustration and walked away. This is ridiculous Write She grabbed a drink of […]
Lord I am so frustrated. I hate this time of trial. I hate this so much. It’s so frustrating and so lonely. God I hate this. Lord I know you are trying to teach me to trust. But it’s so hard. So freaking difficult. Ha. That’s the essence of trust isn’t it? Letting go and […]
I’m a planner .:. I plan out every aspect of everything. planning helps me – keep control I guess. I planned on running a marathon – but POTS changed that. I planned on losing a bunch of weight – but MCAS is making that harder and harder. Makes me frustrated and feeling defeated A lot […]
We are at the beginning of the hot season here in Georgia – which would be nothing if not for the ac being busted. We have it on now .. but it barely works. Oh Lord I can’t deal with this. My symptoms get 1000xs worse in the heat. Lord I’m so frustrated and so […]
Another God is cool story coming up – wait did I call it that previously? Anyways .. lemme tell you this past week has been hard. I know you can’t tell but it’s been a week since I wrote. Has it? Oh my goodness .. let’s just say it’s been a minute. So I have […]
I love me a good snack y’all … now that I’m low carb it’s slim picking to find a good salty snack (with my food restrictions). But I found a good one! Sunflower seeds. All that salt? All that yummy low carb…ness. Perfect right? Nope. Not wearing lipstick. MCAS decided to act up .. badly. […]
So I’m learning more and more about my new .:. Disease? Issue? MCAS is .. well weird. I found out that stress can trigger a mast cell flare .. was watching the news when? My nose started acting like a faucet and my lips started burning. Currently my lips are sore and I have those […]
Y’all it’s moving day! The day I have waited for is finally here and? I’m terrified. I am literally sitting on my bed not being able to move cause it’s just so much. The remaining packing .. the move .. the ac stuff .. it’s all just … it’s got me frozen in frustration. And […]
Got more frustrating news in regards to my health. More normal. How is it normal to be feeling like this?! I’m mad. But you know what? I praise you Lord. You are my shepherd and you guide me. You are my healer & provider. So I wait and trust in you…. “Great Are You Lord” […]
How Jesus Changed Me 