my heart hurts

y’all my heart hurts. oh my word. it hurts so much. someone i know died by suicide. the pain they felt must’ve been so unimaginable. its a pain i am familiar with but each person’s story is different. my heart hurts to think of the loneliness. the fear. the doubt. the anger. all the emotions. […]

Here I am

Lord here I am .. I’m tired. I’m worn out. I’m trying to hope and trust in you but this is hard. So I praise you as I try to learn to truly trust in you You are my vision, O King of my heartNothing else satisfies, only You LordYou are my best thought by […]

Lord

Lord I am at a loss. I feel everything just … I don’t even know. Jesus help me Light of the worldYou stepped down into darknessOpened my eyes, let me seeBeauty that made this heart adore YouHope of a life spent with You Here I am to worshipHere I am to bow downHere I am […]

135

So my heart rate hit 135 .. while I was sleeping. My exhaustion level is at ridiculous levels. I have a couple more days left to see the pots doctor. I’m not gonna lie and say I’m not scared – cause I am. But I trust you Lord.

Valentine’s

Today is Valentine’s Day. I know I had a post on the actual day but I couldn’t brain. So here we are. My heart is not working right – almost passed out yesterday from taking out the trash. Today I passed out from putting on my compression sleeves. Sigh. This Valentine’s sucks My husband got […]

Lord

Lord there are so many things happening. I’m so overwhelmed because I’m trying to do this on my own. Please forgive me Lord. I commit this to you and praise your holy and powerful name. Thank you Lord for loving me… There’s nothing worth more, that will ever come close No thing can compare, You’re our […]