I hate it – from the depths of my soul – when I see a need not being met. So I go and do. Whether I want to or not. It pains me not doing a thing. But here I am .. not doing a thing cause my body says no. I guess it has […]
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I don’t understand
Lord .. I don’t understand. This life is rough Lord – not knowing what each day brings. The pain. The reactions. I’m tired of this – please take this away from me Lord. I hate this. I do. But I know you are the great healer. The great provider. My mighty and powerful God. I […]
Walk by faith
Ok so we are to walk by faith during those hard times right? But when it’s really hard – how do you walk by faith? Very slowly .. and carefully. And even if the amount of faith you have is as small as a mustard seed? God will do mighty things So Jesus said to […]
The God who sees
El Roi means the God who sees…but does he see me? I went through this awesome book about the names of God. This one always stuck out to me cause I always dealt with – not being seen. Especially going through this .. whatever you want to call my health journey .. I feel constantly […]
Judging people
Be careful how you judge people. I mean the Bible calls us to judge righteously right? But make sure you are emphasizing that latter part. Righteously. Here’s what I mean … What you see: What you don’t see: It’s hard to judge a person based only on their looks. You don’t know how or why […]
Whining
Lord I know I’ve been whining and complaining but Lord if this is the path you want me on? I know you have a reason so I pray that not my will but yours be done. So if I need to be crucified? Then so be it…
Moments
I go through my moments .. especially since getting sick: “oh my life is horrible” .. “poor me” .. “no one understands”. And so on. I recently went through that. It’s hard living this Spoonie life. Makes ya wanna feel sorry for yourself and push out life. Y’all I have been so tired lately I […]
7
It’s 7 something in the morning and I had a rough night. My legs are so tired .. I’m in such pain I can’t even go to church (it’s a Sunday). But yet I still will praise my Lord. God I hate this so much, but I trust and hope in you alone. In the […]
Exercise sucks
Yeah. That’s right a former fitness influencer is saying: Exercise sucks. Why? Well .. Cause it does. With being diagnosed with ehlers danlos the first thing I learned? The importance of exercise in my daily life. If I don’t exercise – even something as simple as a stretch workout or a bike ride – I […]
Patience
Lord I understand that you are trying to teach us patience .. but please can we stop learning this lesson? Lord I know you have a plan, but why does this have to be so difficult? We have had thing after thing these past 2+ years. Why? Honestly? This ain’t fair … this is beyond […]
How Jesus Changed Me 