Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
I got great news! I’m finally learning to let go of control. Ok ok … I still am a huge knucklehead but im learning. What can I say? I’m a work in progress. But I’m learning. So I had a horrible appointment with my last cardiologist and I was set on not going to another […]
So remember how I told you I was on meds that literally could’ve killed me? And that clinically speaking I was addicted to a med that was overprescribed? Ok then .. click the links if you don’t know. Well it’s been 1 month and I am officially off the meds that could’ve killed me – […]
I haven’t really been talking about how Jesus changed me based on stories from my life. Sorry. I told y’all C-PTSD is complicated. Some days I cant even think about it. But then? I remember that time….there was that time i was a bully. Man. I haven’t thought about this in forever. But in high […]
I hate getting the silent treatment. It’s a trigger point for my c-ptsd. Major one. Not going into specifics but full on panic attacks and everything. Thing is? A lot of people? Are just silent. Ya know the “strong silent type” people? Sigh. I’m freaking out just writing this. okay….this is a couple of weeks […]
I have depression due to a chemical imbalance in my brain. I have medical depression or as its commonly called: clinical depression. Comments from others have ranged from: “oh I’m sorry” to “I have that too. I just pray” Sigh. When will we learn its not a competition? I was misdiagnosed with bipolar 1 – […]
I’ve been broken so many times I cant even count. I suffer from CPTSD from some major things. Mental and Verbal abuse mainly but someone did something to me that can never be undone. I really dont want to talk about it but I am having a bad CPTSD day so why not. I don’t […]
I love my mother to pieces and I am so grateful God for putt her in my life – or should I say I’m in her life? She has taught me so many great things. She has been such a godly example of what a woman of God should be like. I pray that one […]
“I’m so free I got no chains on me” Love this song from KB. I am free. I am free from chains that surround me constantly. But then there are days where I just feel so brought down. Y’all know about my diagnosis of PTSD but what you may not realize is that along with […]
I’ve always been different. My son has autism and the more I learn about him the more I identify with him. I’m not gonna get tested for it because honestly I am gonna be 41 – what would it help now? But back then? It couldve helped. Granted I had undiagnosed PTSD and ADHD. But […]
As an adult? Yeah my memory sucks majorly yall. Man I miss my brain. Probably because of the abuse, but I don’t remember most of my childhood. I don’t remember the good, I get flashes here and there but I don’t remember much. I remember the bad, I remember constantly being afraid – funny how […]
How Jesus Changed Me 