Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
Yeah here I am talking about that Spoonie life again. Oh well. But bear with me cause I am gonna use that to show you how Jesus changed me. Long story short? It’s been a crappy 3yrs of my body breaking down. Here’s a pic of me during my worst: I used to chronicle my […]
I am a spoonie. What does that mean? Well, its a term meaning someone who suffers from a chronic illness. I suffer from several. Doesnt matter what or whatever but what matters is how God uses it right? Well, as someone who is going through it? I never see an end. I remember the first […]
Y’all … I am beat down. I’m just .. struggling honestly. I am so tired and frustrated and I absolutely hate this feeling. My body is just so worn down y’all. We were driving home from church today and the sun was shining brightly. It literally felt like fire on me. I know it was […]
More issues have arisen. My prescription has not yet arrived and our change of address did not go through. This med helps me sleep. I am literally on my last dose today. Okay Lord what’s up? Am I complaining too much? Am I being ungrateful? Please show me Lord. I know you are using all […]
Who knew sitting and fellowshipping with family would give me this level of exhaustion. I miss the days where I could do anything and not worry about it. This Spoonie life is rough. So today we had the open house for … our house. did I say that right? Moving on…. We bought lunch and […]
So well … here it is. I am pretty sure I have POTS. I did the poor man’s tilt table test and it indicates that I have POTS – definitely have a dysautonomic disorder. Now as I told y’all recently my appointment was canceled on me for September. Todays a Saturday and I was gonna […]
i’m a mess y’all …. i’m flailing. I am grasping at straws and I cant anymore. My body aches. I am so weak i dont even trust myself driving. My brain is so foggy – sometimes i cant even hold a conversation. My depression is right on the edge of my brain trying to bust […]
When the quarantine happened, bear with me I’m not getting into what you are thinking I’m getting into – we were all thrown for a loop. Masks…and so forth. Again. Not what you think it’s gonna be about. Then things started to open up people had all sorts of ideas. “Why masks? Don’t you dare […]
Well as you read … whenever. My test results came back normal. I was referred to a POTS specialist. I’m so over this. I want answers now. I want to now already what’s been happening. Lord I can’t. And then – just so you know – living the Spoonie life is rough. Why? Cause everyone […]
So there’s this meme going around for chronic illness suffers. It goes along the lines “getting normal medical test results leads to the doctor saying you’re fine” well that happened. Wait lemme get it for you… Couldn’t find it but this is close: Sigh. My holter monitor results came back normal – thank God. But […]
How Jesus Changed Me 