Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
God. Oh sweet Heavenly Father. I’m tired. I’m tired of the body aches. I’m tired of the chest pains. I’m tired of the fear. I’m tired of feeling alone. I’m tired of being breathless. I know you have a purpose though. So I put my trust and hope in you. I commit my health to […]
Lord I’m tired. I’m spent. My body can’t handle anymore. Please have mercy on me. Save me. help. My dysautonomic symptoms sometimes just hit me so hard. Grant me your grace and strength. I can’t do this anymore – help. Please forgive me for trying to do it in my own strength. I commit my […]
You may be a chronic illness sufferer if your clothes are mismatched and you don’t care. Wai .. Wai .. wait…it’s more like you’re too tired to match. Case in point: Today I took the kids out to hang out, bowl and shop a little on a rainy day. Which I’m quickly realizing is a […]
so heres what happening – just so you know why I’m tired of this. My grandma is dying. This woman was very influential in my life. She taught me to cook. She taught me to sew. She was one of the few people who accepted me for who I was. The odd duck. My thyroid […]
Got a new diagnosis: fibromyalgia. Great. Lord I thank you for this diagnosis, as it has me on a plan to manage. I know what I need to do.. But this is forever. Why? God I understand. I hate this so much. I want to cry and scream and just give up. But by Your […]
There are times when I am just so stinking tired of this life. I hate this Lord. I’m not even .. Lord why? Why me? Why do I hafta go through this? This is not even close to being fair: Apparently I can no longer have my absolute favorite meal. This happened after I ate […]
Lord .. I don’t understand. This life is rough Lord – not knowing what each day brings. The pain. The reactions. I’m tired of this – please take this away from me Lord. I hate this. I do. But I know you are the great healer. The great provider. My mighty and powerful God. I […]
I love me a good snack y’all … now that I’m low carb it’s slim picking to find a good salty snack (with my food restrictions). But I found a good one! Sunflower seeds. All that salt? All that yummy low carb…ness. Perfect right? Nope. Not wearing lipstick. MCAS decided to act up .. badly. […]
So I’m learning more and more about my new .:. Disease? Issue? MCAS is .. well weird. I found out that stress can trigger a mast cell flare .. was watching the news when? My nose started acting like a faucet and my lips started burning. Currently my lips are sore and I have those […]
Today I’ve realized that even the most minor food allergens? Screw with my heart. Like chocolate .. apples .. bananas .. pretzels .. any sugar. Yesterday I ate a breakfast oval from an allergy friendly company – today? my heart rate hit 181 doing laundry. Lord .. I’m so overwhelmed and tired with how much […]
How Jesus Changed Me 