well its Day 4 of me wearing the holter monitor. How is it going? Well I’ll tell ya. Interesting. I have to take it off each morning to charge it for a period of time. They told me it takes an hour and what have i found out? It takes an hour and a half. […]
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I trust in Jesus
I sit here in the midst of a panic attack and all I want to do is scream. All I want to do is throw stuff and yell and….okay. I’m out of metaphors…similes….whatever theyre called. But instead of doing those things. I trust in Jesus. easy right? try that again. I trust in Jesus. My […]
I’m under attack
No seriously. I’m under attack – and so are you. The enemy doesn’t like us. Being a christian makes you his worst….enemy. Everything we do, everything we are? Will be constantly under attack. He wants to steal our song. He wants to steal our joy. How do we fight back? Seems … difficult. Right? Well […]
Here comes the real
I remember the first time I tried to kill myself. I was around 11 or 12 (my rebellious years) and I had a bad case of hiccups. I said to myself: “If I don’t stop the hiccups? I’m gonna stab myself.” And I picked up a knife and waited. Seconds went by and it finally […]
patience
Hi. My name is Jessica and I have absolutely no patience. None. At all. I remember when I was a teen I prayed those fateful words: “Lord please teach me to be patient”. Here we are 20+ years later? I’m still learning. But its slowly starting to stick with me. Take my tumor situation – […]
The walk
She walked down the path….the walk seemed forever. “mommy I’m scared” “Its totally okay to be scared but please know there is nothing to worry about baby. I am right here.” She kept quiet as they entered the building. Should I do this? I want to …. but should i? “Baby girl, you are doing […]
Be quiet!
Prayer has always been allusive to me. “How do you pray?” Was my constant question. For a looong while I had this idea that you needed to say certain words so that God would listen to you. I know, I know. I remember when I was 16 I was sitting in a prayer group when […]
God is kind
Friend? God is so awesome. And good. And powerful. And kind. Oh how I could go on. But ya know what? This period of time in my life has been difficult. So difficult. This year alone my daughter had 2 colonoscopies – before she turned 10 My health took a major turn for the worse.. […]
How do you know God is real?
I’ve been asked this several times. “Jess you have been through hell and back. The worst things have happened to you (don’t worry we’ll get there)….how can you still say God is real?” Fair question right? But I’ll tell ya how I now know. My parents were driving us home from my grandmas house when […]
No memory
As an adult? Yeah my memory sucks majorly yall. Man I miss my brain. Probably because of the abuse, but I don’t remember most of my childhood. I don’t remember the good, I get flashes here and there but I don’t remember much. I remember the bad, I remember constantly being afraid – funny how […]