
More waiting
So I finally got my follow up appointment with my new cardiologist. Today is March 14th .. my appointment? June 16th … more waiting. I hate waiting. I ain’t gonna sugar coat this Lord .. this sucks. Majorly. I know you have a plan – but does this hafta be so long and difficult? I…
Normal
I hate that word: normal. I’m getting test after test coming back normal. Sigh. I hate this. God forgive me but I hate this so much. I’ve been taking the supplements and I’m noticing a difference. My hand was dark black from terrible eczema. My hand is clearing up… My blood pressure has stabilized. Previously,…
More tests
Well today I go for more tests. I’m anxious cause I can’t eat or drink until after the test. Which causes me to have episodes. And I have to drive an hour there and back – by myself. But .. I’m committing it to the Lord. I’m worried .. I’m anxious .. I’m all of…
Chocolate
Y’all .. still waiting for my test results. But I started a supplement regimen from the doctor. My hands are getting better (i have terrible eczema) but we’ve hit a new low in my “I’m allergic to everything under the sun” journey. I am now allergic to chocolate. So I thought something was up after…
So yeah … again
So here we are again .:. Some of my tests results are coming back … normal. So yeah. Here we go again. Lord I’m tired .. I’m weak .. I just want help. Please God help me. I know you are the only one who can. Please heal me Lord. I commit my life to…
Here I am
Lord here I am .. I’m tired. I’m worn out. I’m trying to hope and trust in you but this is hard. So I praise you as I try to learn to truly trust in you You are my vision, O King of my heartNothing else satisfies, only You LordYou are my best thought by…
Wrong. So wrong
So I saw the POTS doctor. She’s pretty convinced that I have POTS .. plus MCAS .. which is all being aggravated by iliac compression syndrome. I have to wait for the office to call me to schedule the tests, while I wait for the blood test results to come back. I thought I had…
Have you?
You’ve probably have noticed I’ve been posting a lot of praise songs. The reason why is cause I’ve finally realized how important it is to praise God, especially through those dark times. Have you? It’s so easy to concentrate on the bad – especially with the way things are going in this world. It’s so…
Lord
Lord I am at a loss. I feel everything just … I don’t even know. Jesus help me Light of the worldYou stepped down into darknessOpened my eyes, let me seeBeauty that made this heart adore YouHope of a life spent with You Here I am to worshipHere I am to bow downHere I am…
Today
Well it’s finally here. Today is my appointment with the POTS doctor. I am terrified Lord .. I don’t want another rude doctor. I don’t want to be humiliated again. I don’t want to be ignored. I don’t want to be belittled. But Lord if that is your will? So be it. I put my…
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