Found this online and dude if this is not the most perfect representation of my life this past year – I don’t know what is. I needed this. Thank you Lord for always blessing and always just being there. Thank you Lord for loving me
Category: just a thought
I’m flailing
i’m a mess y’all …. i’m flailing. I am grasping at straws and I cant anymore. My body aches. I am so weak i dont even trust myself driving. My brain is so foggy – sometimes i cant even hold a conversation. My depression is right on the edge of my brain trying to bust […]
Y’all I can’t
Just when I think I know … shoo that should’ve been the name of this blog. Y’all I can’t … I just can’t. Just when I think I know what’s happening with my life and where God has us? Yea .. it changes. I’m not saying anything right now because it’s all up in the […]
Dude. Really?
When the quarantine happened, bear with me I’m not getting into what you are thinking I’m getting into – we were all thrown for a loop. Masks…and so forth. Again. Not what you think it’s gonna be about. Then things started to open up people had all sorts of ideas. “Why masks? Don’t you dare […]
Dude
Dude. Do you have any idea how much this process pisses me off? By process, I mean this time of illness and learning. Ugh. This whole thing pisses me off so much. Having to say no to things cause I physically can’t. Having to have people make plans without me? Not being considered cause I’m […]
Having faith
As a Spoonie, I hear this constantly from people when I say: I’m suffering. “Are you having enough faith?” “God will heal you! Just have the faith” Y’all…I have faith. I know my Beautiful creator can do anything. Anything at all, but it still hurts. This sucks. I can’t play with kids like I used […]
Go getter
I’m a go getter. I see things that need to be done and I get it done. my husband on the other hand? He’s totally laid back. For example? We are looking for a house to move closer to my husbands job. We need more space too. To me? I hear – my husband needs […]
Perfection
I’m not perfect. Shocking I know. But growing up? I was taught … no it was more implied that I needed to achieve perfection. Like it’s the goal. As a girl, as a student, as a woman , as an employee, as a wife, as a mother and of course as a Christian. It pisses […]
I don’t know what to say
I don’t. It’s been a couple of bad pain days – non stop rainy days. My leg is killing me. And the worst part is? The part with the major arthritis doesn’t hurt that much – it’s the muscle pain. That’s the pain that cripples me and leaves me near tears. I don’t know what […]
i’m learning
through this time y’all? i’m learning. i’m learning what it truly means to be a servant – not a slave a servant. Its a freaking difficult lesson to learn because … well I just want to rebel from that idea. ya know? Being told you are growing up to be a slave (see previous link […]
How Jesus Changed Me 