I don’t even know how to ..: this doesn’t even begin ..:. Lord help! Lord I can’t. This is too much. This is scary. Beyond frustrating. I hate this so much But I know you have a plan. So I put my hope in you. Please heal me of these illnesses. But I ask most […]
Got a new diagnosis: fibromyalgia. Great. Lord I thank you for this diagnosis, as it has me on a plan to manage. I know what I need to do.. But this is forever. Why? God I understand. I hate this so much. I want to cry and scream and just give up. But by Your […]
I’ve been having interesting dreams and want to share. I will leave to you what they mean .. God has really been placing this on my heart and I want to share. It was just after my grandmothers funeral, we were in her apartment, gathering her stuff. she used to live in an old apartment […]
Not doing a thing
I hate it – from the depths of my soul – when I see a need not being met. So I go and do. Whether I want to or not. It pains me not doing a thing. But here I am .. not doing a thing cause my body says no. I guess it has […]
Forgive me please
Lord please forgive me for my doubts and fears. Please forgive me for losing sight of you. You have always been there and I know you always will be. I praise you for your goodness – even in this storm.
Oh Lord just when I think I got it all figured out…I prove myself wrong. I am a mess God .. please forgive me for my doubts and fears. I commit this water heater situation to you. It’s gotten worse today and I’m sitting here waiting for the plumber. You know how I loathe waiting… […]
There are times when I am just so stinking tired of this life. I hate this Lord. I’m not even .. Lord why? Why me? Why do I hafta go through this? This is not even close to being fair: Apparently I can no longer have my absolute favorite meal. This happened after I ate […]
I don’t understand
Lord .. I don’t understand. This life is rough Lord – not knowing what each day brings. The pain. The reactions. I’m tired of this – please take this away from me Lord. I hate this. I do. But I know you are the great healer. The great provider. My mighty and powerful God. I […]
I’m a knucklehead
I’m a big knucklehead Lord. Thank you for your peace and grace. I thank you for your patience. I thank you for loving me. Thank you for always being there. I thank you Lord for your healing touch and the fact that it’s not what they thought it was.
So I have yet another potential diagnosis. This one a little more … Lord I’m done. I’m so done. Why me? I know I know I’m probably overacting — which is a usual for me. I have to sit here and wait to hear back from a doctor. Sit here with my thoughts. So I’m […]