Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
she looked outside the window in a peaceful silence … knowing the chaos that day would bring. God. I cant do this. She slowly got up and moved about the room getting ready. She sat down on her big easy chair God. I cannot do this. I ask that your Holy Spirit would come upon […]
She looked quietly in the mirror. Her scars horrified her. She hated the way they proudly showed themselves off. Look at me! I hurt her when she was told she was fat. No! Look at me! I scarred her when people laughed at her. Nah! It’s me! I’m the most damaging! No one will ever […]
she looked around the floor. Everything was drenched. The chairs. the floor. the garbage can. the recycling. “Sorry mommy” Of course this happens when my husband is not home and its a bad pain day. Of course, she thought to herself. She sighed. “Take everything upstairs” And she began the arduous task of cleaning the […]
she just looked at him in wonder. “I wonder where he goes in that stare,” she said to her husband. The stare she was referring to was her sons. He would just get into this zone and stare. Nothing would be wrong. Nothing would be off – just the stare. She once asked her son […]
she shook her head. NO. Not again. the dark threatened to overtake her. NO. She kept cleaning her house. She had been keeping the dark at bay but today? It creeped ever so closer to her. NO you are stupid NO you are fat No you are not worthy of love Tears fell down her […]
Dear depression let me tell you this one thing: no! Not today! I am not having it! You have sucked enough life out of me – even trying to take it all away. Enough! Not today! This is your warning. I finally realized Jesus is on my side. I know this won’t be the end […]
She walked quietly down the beach, hands stuffed in her pockets. She stopped and looked up to the sky. She always loved walking down the beach when the world overwhelmed her and became too much. She needed this reminder. If she let her thoughts run rampant, she would get consumed with them. If she let […]
panic settled in. Her heart started fluttering all of a sudden the room was moving too fast the noise was too loud whats wrong? Why am I freaking out? She tried to calm her nerves. Just breathe. Where are you? Are you safe? Is everyone safe? You are okay Her mind started to clear and […]
I sit here in the midst of a panic attack and all I want to do is scream. All I want to do is throw stuff and yell and….okay. I’m out of metaphors…similes….whatever theyre called. But instead of doing those things. I trust in Jesus. easy right? try that again. I trust in Jesus. My […]
Lord……yea im admitting it. Im mad. But seriously? Why? why do I hafta go through this? Forgive me Lord but I dont want to go through this. I want to be healthy for my family. I want to not be in pain. I want to be that mom for my kids. I hate being out […]
How Jesus Changed Me 