Or at least I used to be. Maybe. I’m not sure. Let’s not ask my husband or kids. Growing up I was always told I was loud. “Why are you being loud JESSICA!?” Now? I mumble and speak quietly. Mostly. Again … let’s not ask my husband or kids about that. Moving on. That shaped […]
Tag: devotionals
Things
Certain things don’t always come out the way you plan. Ha. Who am I kidding? Nothing comes out the way we planned does it? The point is? To keep trying to keep pushing right? That was a big lesson for me recently. I was about 340 lbs and not at all where I wanted to […]
Setting myself a part
Setting yourself a part….I’ve always heard of this but what does it mean? I mean setting myself a part sounds kinda scary and lonely right? Especially for me – I deal with a lot of abandonment issues. To this day I hate being alone. Probably where my daughter gets it from – no wait. thats […]
Everything is Praise Worthy
I remember the first time I heard this. It was after they found the first tumor in my body. I remember thinking – “Everything is praise worthy?” why the heck am I gonna praise God about this for? Thats around the time I started pushing God away. Cause “if God is asking me to praise […]
still
sometimes I like to be just still. No noise. No people…..just me. Not depression. Not anxiety. Well maybe anxiety. You see there are just sometimes when people are just too much for me. And I just hide. Or I lash out. Lashing out seems to be the go to emotion for me. Thats all I’ll […]
fear
no one likes me. im alone. i dont deserve to be here. These are all lies my friend. Lies that the enemy wants you to believe to control your heart. That fear and self loathing you feel? Thats not from God. I felt it for years and quite honestly? I still struggle with those thoughts. […]
How Jesus Changed Me 