How awesome you are Gracious and mighty King In my unworthiness You have Loved Me You are Awesome Lord Totally and completely Awesome
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Here comes the real
I remember the first time I tried to kill myself. I was around 11 or 12 (my rebellious years) and I had a bad case of hiccups. I said to myself: “If I don’t stop the hiccups? I’m gonna stab myself.” And I picked up a knife and waited. Seconds went by and it finally […]
Whining
y’all…..im a big baby. I whine a lot. IF whining was a sport i think i would win the gold. seriously. I think I talked about this wonderful characteristic of mine. moving on… I am a big whiner. But ya know what I noticed? I aint alone. The kids and I were supposed to go […]
No chains
“I’m so free I got no chains on me” Love this song from KB. I am free. I am free from chains that surround me constantly. But then there are days where I just feel so brought down. Y’all know about my diagnosis of PTSD but what you may not realize is that along with […]
I am loud
Or at least I used to be. Maybe. I’m not sure. Let’s not ask my husband or kids. Growing up I was always told I was loud. “Why are you being loud JESSICA!?” Now? I mumble and speak quietly. Mostly. Again … let’s not ask my husband or kids about that. Moving on. That shaped […]
Being Free
I think people like to use this term freely….I am free. Being free does not mean that we can do whatever we want – it means we don’t feel those compulsions. That we don’t feel those needs to do things to feel complete. Part of my testimony is that I …. well was a true […]
still
sometimes I like to be just still. No noise. No people…..just me. Not depression. Not anxiety. Well maybe anxiety. You see there are just sometimes when people are just too much for me. And I just hide. Or I lash out. Lashing out seems to be the go to emotion for me. Thats all I’ll […]
Ugh
So im still recovering from surgery. Its a pain to sit here and not do anything. ugh. I hate this so much. For real. My family – God bless them – has been stepping up big time. Showing the glory of the Lord through it all but this is difficult. Sitting here and letting other […]
Whoops
Silence filled the room as she walked quietly and quickly up to the stage. ‘Don’t fall. Don’t fall. Don’t fall. Oh my word. Is Chad looking?‘ She tried to look over at him. ‘Don’t fall. Don’t fall. Don’t fall.’ She had to concentrate on her flirty walk she couldnt see if he was looking. Finally […]
fear
no one likes me. im alone. i dont deserve to be here. These are all lies my friend. Lies that the enemy wants you to believe to control your heart. That fear and self loathing you feel? Thats not from God. I felt it for years and quite honestly? I still struggle with those thoughts. […]
How Jesus Changed Me 