I hate the times of “hurry up and wait” … it’s the worst. Y’all know I’ve had a case or 10 of those. Sigh. Well here we go again. My cardiologist appointment? Postponed until my results of the holter monitor thing is done. Okay Lord. Okay. I’ll hurry up and wait…I hate waiting but I […]
Tag: one day at a time
i’ve been kicked
i’ve been kicked … i’ve been broken … I’ve been through it lately. and im done. I wanna give up. Sit on my couch and watch TV all day. I dont want to do anything. I want to hide. Yeah….i’m going through a depressive episode and it sucks. I’m tired of feeling like this. Questioning […]
thorn in the flesh
everyone has ideas as to what Paul means when he talks about a “thorn in the flesh”. He means his eye issues … he’s talking about his guilt of killing people …. and so on. I like they dont talk about what it was. Cause its the idea behind it. I know a thing or […]
I don’t like
I don’t like when things go my way. I think I’ve said that once or twice Or more. Moving on…. God has truly been leading me on a path when I’m realizing more and more. It’s not about me. It’s not about what I want and? It sucks I hate not being able to control […]
so yeah. This aint fun
So i hit another ….. thing in my fight. My heart has apparently has had some damage from covid. Before it was just a possibility – now its a definite confirmation. My cholesterol is high – probably from my thyroid being messed up. So yeah. This aint fun. I know He is in control but […]
my prayer
Lord. Please use me….I want to give you glory. I want everything I do to be for you. My prayer is that even if it is one person for all my time writing – that your name be glorified. Lord I have so many ideas and so many things I want to do for you. […]
speak
He looked at the crowd. Fear gripped his heart. ‘what do I do? What do I say?’ The silence filled his heart. ‘where can i go? how do i get out of here?’ he scanned the room for his mom. Where was she? She would know….wait….. he moved forward cautiously. not wanting to disturb anything. […]
Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord
I grew up with a vengeful god. Yeah you read that right….I hit the little g on purpose cause thats not how the one true God works y’all. Just plain facts. Anyway – I grew up very legalistic. For those who don’t know what legalism is, heres a quick 411: Legalism definition from dictionary.com is […]
No memory
As an adult? Yeah my memory sucks majorly yall. Man I miss my brain. Probably because of the abuse, but I don’t remember most of my childhood. I don’t remember the good, I get flashes here and there but I don’t remember much. I remember the bad, I remember constantly being afraid – funny how […]
How Jesus Changed Me 