Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
So I finally got my follow up appointment with my new cardiologist. Today is March 14th .. my appointment? June 16th … more waiting. I hate waiting. I ain’t gonna sugar coat this Lord .. this sucks. Majorly. I know you have a plan – but does this hafta be so long and difficult? I […]
I hate that word: normal. I’m getting test after test coming back normal. Sigh. I hate this. God forgive me but I hate this so much. I’ve been taking the supplements and I’m noticing a difference. My hand was dark black from terrible eczema. My hand is clearing up… My blood pressure has stabilized. Previously, […]
Well today I go for more tests. I’m anxious cause I can’t eat or drink until after the test. Which causes me to have episodes. And I have to drive an hour there and back – by myself. But .. I’m committing it to the Lord. I’m worried .. I’m anxious .. I’m all of […]
So here we are again .:. Some of my tests results are coming back … normal. So yeah. Here we go again. Lord I’m tired .. I’m weak .. I just want help. Please God help me. I know you are the only one who can. Please heal me Lord. I commit my life to […]
So I saw the POTS doctor. She’s pretty convinced that I have POTS .. plus MCAS .. which is all being aggravated by iliac compression syndrome. I have to wait for the office to call me to schedule the tests, while I wait for the blood test results to come back. I thought I had […]
Well it’s finally here. Today is my appointment with the POTS doctor. I am terrified Lord .. I don’t want another rude doctor. I don’t want to be humiliated again. I don’t want to be ignored. I don’t want to be belittled. But Lord if that is your will? So be it. I put my […]
So my heart rate hit 135 .. while I was sleeping. My exhaustion level is at ridiculous levels. I have a couple more days left to see the pots doctor. I’m not gonna lie and say I’m not scared – cause I am. But I trust you Lord.
Last night we got a distressing message about a loved one going to the hospital. It was hard news but have I told how awesome God is? Well here is more how awesome stuff about how God works. In the middle of the night, we got a message that originally freaked me out. My brother […]
Lord I understand that you are trying to teach us patience .. but please can we stop learning this lesson? Lord I know you have a plan, but why does this have to be so difficult? We have had thing after thing these past 2+ years. Why? Honestly? This ain’t fair … this is beyond […]
Today is Valentine’s Day. I know I had a post on the actual day but I couldn’t brain. So here we are. My heart is not working right – almost passed out yesterday from taking out the trash. Today I passed out from putting on my compression sleeves. Sigh. This Valentine’s sucks My husband got […]
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