Doesn’t even begin

I don’t even know how to ..: this doesn’t even begin ..:. Lord help! Lord I can’t. This is too much. This is scary. Beyond frustrating. I hate this so much But I know you have a plan. So I put my hope in you. Please heal me of these illnesses. But I ask most […]

Planning

I’m a planner .:. I plan out every aspect of everything. planning helps me – keep control I guess. I planned on running a marathon – but POTS changed that. I planned on losing a bunch of weight – but MCAS is making that harder and harder. Makes me frustrated and feeling defeated A lot […]

Oh Lord

Oh Lord just when I think I got it all figured out…I prove myself wrong. I am a mess God .. please forgive me for my doubts and fears. I commit this water heater situation to you. It’s gotten worse today and I’m sitting here waiting for the plumber. You know how I loathe waiting… […]

God is cool

Another God is cool story coming up – wait did I call it that previously? Anyways .. lemme tell you this past week has been hard. I know you can’t tell but it’s been a week since I wrote. Has it? Oh my goodness .. let’s just say it’s been a minute. So I have […]

Times

There are times when I am just so stinking tired of this life. I hate this Lord. I’m not even .. Lord why? Why me? Why do I hafta go through this? This is not even close to being fair: Apparently I can no longer have my absolute favorite meal. This happened after I ate […]