Talking about my life and how God used every instance in my life to draw closer to Him
I hate that word: normal. I’m getting test after test coming back normal. Sigh. I hate this. God forgive me but I hate this so much. I’ve been taking the supplements and I’m noticing a difference. My hand was dark black from terrible eczema. My hand is clearing up… My blood pressure has stabilized. Previously, […]
Well today I go for more tests. I’m anxious cause I can’t eat or drink until after the test. Which causes me to have episodes. And I have to drive an hour there and back – by myself. But .. I’m committing it to the Lord. I’m worried .. I’m anxious .. I’m all of […]
So here we are again .:. Some of my tests results are coming back … normal. So yeah. Here we go again. Lord I’m tired .. I’m weak .. I just want help. Please God help me. I know you are the only one who can. Please heal me Lord. I commit my life to […]
So I saw the POTS doctor. She’s pretty convinced that I have POTS .. plus MCAS .. which is all being aggravated by iliac compression syndrome. I have to wait for the office to call me to schedule the tests, while I wait for the blood test results to come back. I thought I had […]
Well it’s finally here. Today is my appointment with the POTS doctor. I am terrified Lord .. I don’t want another rude doctor. I don’t want to be humiliated again. I don’t want to be ignored. I don’t want to be belittled. But Lord if that is your will? So be it. I put my […]
So my heart rate hit 135 .. while I was sleeping. My exhaustion level is at ridiculous levels. I have a couple more days left to see the pots doctor. I’m not gonna lie and say I’m not scared – cause I am. But I trust you Lord.
It’s 7 something in the morning and I had a rough night. My legs are so tired .. I’m in such pain I can’t even go to church (it’s a Sunday). But yet I still will praise my Lord. God I hate this so much, but I trust and hope in you alone. In the […]
Lord I understand that you are trying to teach us patience .. but please can we stop learning this lesson? Lord I know you have a plan, but why does this have to be so difficult? We have had thing after thing these past 2+ years. Why? Honestly? This ain’t fair … this is beyond […]
Today is Valentine’s Day. I know I had a post on the actual day but I couldn’t brain. So here we are. My heart is not working right – almost passed out yesterday from taking out the trash. Today I passed out from putting on my compression sleeves. Sigh. This Valentine’s sucks My husband got […]
So we are in a rental now .. had to give 60 days notice before we moved out, right? So we are taking that time to slowly move. Todays our first day. My husband is injured (remember surgery coming up) so we have help – thank God. But both my husband and I feel bad. […]
How Jesus Changed Me 