Ever since my thyroid surgery, almost every single morning I’ve woken up and prayed: Lord help me. I just can’t do this. And? He has. No. Not helped me. He has literally been carrying me through this. There have been times where my knees are about to buckle from me about to pass out and […]
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Holter Monitor Day 4
well its Day 4 of me wearing the holter monitor. How is it going? Well I’ll tell ya. Interesting. I have to take it off each morning to charge it for a period of time. They told me it takes an hour and what have i found out? It takes an hour and a half. […]
Strength comes from above
I told yall about that David play right? The song that impacted my recent life. Well, this comes from it: “…strength comes from above….to lead us to love….you have a choice…trust in your Shepherd…listen for His word…follow His voice” Man. Yesterday proves it ya know? I have no strength. More and more i am finding […]
Holter monitor
So I got the holter monitor on now. I feel like I’m gonna break it or do it wrong – cause that’s just my brain. I feel like nothing is gonna happen and I’m gonna hafta see yet another doctor and get a horrible diagnosis. But I’m learning… Lord I commit this to you. This […]
Dude
Dude. Do you have any idea how much this process pisses me off? By process, I mean this time of illness and learning. Ugh. This whole thing pisses me off so much. Having to say no to things cause I physically can’t. Having to have people make plans without me? Not being considered cause I’m […]
Having faith
As a Spoonie, I hear this constantly from people when I say: I’m suffering. “Are you having enough faith?” “God will heal you! Just have the faith” Y’all…I have faith. I know my Beautiful creator can do anything. Anything at all, but it still hurts. This sucks. I can’t play with kids like I used […]
Go getter
I’m a go getter. I see things that need to be done and I get it done. my husband on the other hand? He’s totally laid back. For example? We are looking for a house to move closer to my husbands job. We need more space too. To me? I hear – my husband needs […]
It’s all about trust
Yes. Yes. I know. My whole blog is all about trust. Well sorry but not sorry. It’s what I’m learning. Sorry for the sass – I’m tired and in pain and I’m nervous. We are traveling tomorrow to locations and timings unknown. No literally unknown. Ok. Maybe not all the locations – I might be […]
Things get in the way
Like for real. Things get in the way and it really pisses me off. Like I went to the doctor finally for my latest injury. I was optimistic, I was joyful looking toward finally starting the process of healing from this and then the doctor told me I was too fat. Too fat. This girl […]
Sigh
Sigh. So yesterday I finally went to urgent care and got my diagnosis. Well for my knee at least. I have dislocated my knee cap and I have advanced arthritis in several locations in my knee. I didn’t know that could happen – but people with EDS are susceptible to orthoarthritis … I know thats […]