I hate getting the silent treatment. It’s a trigger point for my c-ptsd. Major one. Not going into specifics but full on panic attacks and everything. Thing is? A lot of people? Are just silent. Ya know the “strong silent type” people? Sigh. I’m freaking out just writing this. okay….this is a couple of weeks […]
Tag: ptsd
Dont
Dont you dare give up. Dont Dont ever think you are not loved Dont you ever think you are not needed. You are loved by many – more people than I can even think of. But NO one loves you more than God. You are needed in each persons life because right now? Right this […]
Just a reminder
Just a reminder to my fellow spoonies out there: You are loved and being prayed for
No. Not today!
Dear depression let me tell you this one thing: no! Not today! I am not having it! You have sucked enough life out of me – even trying to take it all away. Enough! Not today! This is your warning. I finally realized Jesus is on my side. I know this won’t be the end […]
Here comes the anger
I get angry a lot. Its my weakness. Driving, arguments, injustice….whatever offense? Here comes the anger. Last night my husband just plain out said: what is your deal? Yeah shining moment. God forgive me. Some sort of $300/hr doctor would tell you that it leads to my past trauma….so on and so on. While I […]
Mental health and the church
Yeah its not what you think its about….mental health and the church. Its not an angry post. not anything but the truth of a woman who tried to kill herself more times than she can count and how the church worked into that life. I, 3000%, believe that mental health is medical issue. In certain […]
I’ve been broken
I’ve been broken so many times I cant even count. I suffer from CPTSD from some major things. Mental and Verbal abuse mainly but someone did something to me that can never be undone. I really dont want to talk about it but I am having a bad CPTSD day so why not. I don’t […]
driving
She was driving. Laughing. Enjoying time with her mom – feeling that freedom that only one can feel on the open road. Driving. What peace she used to get from driving. Everything felt right. She always felt that peace from driving – even when she would race cars. It was her time. Her time to […]
I can run faster than you
I love my mother to pieces and I am so grateful God for putt her in my life – or should I say I’m in her life? She has taught me so many great things. She has been such a godly example of what a woman of God should be like. I pray that one […]
Talk
Please my friend – talk. Talk to someone. Anyone. Don’t keep your feelings in – that’s not what God wants for us. Talk. In the US the number to talk to someone is 800-273- Talk Need someone who understands? I’m here for ya friend. Want to talk to a pastor? Email: prayer@calvaryfrederick.com There’s always someone […]