Another God is cool story coming up – wait did I call it that previously? Anyways .. lemme tell you this past week has been hard. I know you can’t tell but it’s been a week since I wrote. Has it? Oh my goodness .. let’s just say it’s been a minute. So I have […]
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Times
There are times when I am just so stinking tired of this life. I hate this Lord. I’m not even .. Lord why? Why me? Why do I hafta go through this? This is not even close to being fair: Apparently I can no longer have my absolute favorite meal. This happened after I ate […]
Sharing
I like sharing my life. Sharing what I’m learning, sharing what I’ve been through, and so on. But ya know what else I’m gonna share? The ugly parts too, why? Cause I’m real I know for a fact that people struggle – but for some reason these same people think they are alone. I’m one […]
Sunflower seeds
I love me a good snack y’all … now that I’m low carb it’s slim picking to find a good salty snack (with my food restrictions). But I found a good one! Sunflower seeds. All that salt? All that yummy low carb…ness. Perfect right? Nope. Not wearing lipstick. MCAS decided to act up .. badly. […]
MCAS is weird
So I’m learning more and more about my new .:. Disease? Issue? MCAS is .. well weird. I found out that stress can trigger a mast cell flare .. was watching the news when? My nose started acting like a faucet and my lips started burning. Currently my lips are sore and I have those […]
Walk by faith
Ok so we are to walk by faith during those hard times right? But when it’s really hard – how do you walk by faith? Very slowly .. and carefully. And even if the amount of faith you have is as small as a mustard seed? God will do mighty things So Jesus said to […]
Crumbling
Lord you are awesome and powerful and kind. I know this to be true but Lord? I’m crumbling right now. I believe you will get us through and that you will never leave and that you see me .. but sometimes it’s too hard. Please God forgive me – but this life is hard. Today […]
Graves into gardens
I love that song: Graves into gardens. I’ll put the links later in the post. But it perfectly describes where I am at lately. Well technically I’m in a flare and I can barely do anything – but spiritually? I’ve never felt such peace. This grave has finally become a garden Last year this time […]
I’m a brat
Lord I’m a brat – I’m so sorry. I thank you for all of your blessings. Thank you for your love and peace. Yeah our dishwasher is busted. Yeah we have a hole in our ceiling. Yeah the ac doesn’t work Yeah it’s gonna start getting hot tomorrow But you know what? We have a […]
Moving day!
Y’all it’s moving day! The day I have waited for is finally here and? I’m terrified. I am literally sitting on my bed not being able to move cause it’s just so much. The remaining packing .. the move .. the ac stuff .. it’s all just … it’s got me frozen in frustration. And […]